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I will wrap up this paper and start fixing my life and go back to my last mentor and his wife (minus the flotsam and jetsam) to ask how to fix this. He was cool, but I would need his wife’s help as well. She was a feminist (🙀 ) and low key (🙀🙀 ).

She would understand. I don’t want to do anything that would affect them or this one other innocuous male scientist there who was a garden variety scientist. None of them were spectacular.
My other mentors and colleagues were at routine institutions so they will be fine.

I really can’t see his wife snubbing me or failing to get why it is important.

I don’t want to know what the deal was with flotsam and jetsam. I wish them well in their flotsam and jetsamness, but I have depopulated my head of irrelevant stuff. That was making my head a bit off.

I didnt object to the NIH postdoc model where a good pi is a buffer between you and these increasingly greedy and psychotic institutions.

Locally I plan to find out and file complaints over time as needed. I don’t submit to the Facebookification/Amazonification/Microsoftification and Googlization or Indigenous Tech Creepification of my street or living spaces with bs fixes and a bogus story.

I am a nameless complainant not an influencer or future political or media personality, but I don’t like being annoyed in my home or street.

There are people here who would get it -they just aren’t in politics or the media-which are both out of date or up to date in lame ways.

There was a Volkswagen whistleblower who got booted out and like the Theranos whistleblowers, he just sort of vanished. That’s typical of whistleblowers not a parade and making as much noise as you can to be on tv-a bread and circuses driven pathology.

I was okay with putting up with this general circus out there, but not in my home or street. I don’t want next level ads etc turning this place where my family home has been for 5 generations into this disgraceful type of useless “modernity”. So I will take it court. Like you have Lina Khan or Aziz Huq over there, there would be suitable younger people here who aren’t the “MixPanel/Infobeans and Lybrate will scam I mean save the world!!!!!!” type. That is a very small subset of Indians who suck away far too much oxygen. I feel they misrepresent us as a people.

This is not really an Alec Karakatsanis type of case - though I respect him/his work. It doesn’t fit. If anyone is policing, I would rather it is the police via the state than transactionalism involving Facebook and Google. David Golumbia and Matt Stoller got it on that one. Someone as sleazy as Joy Buolwimini or a similar person here defunding the police and funding small creepy MixPanel and “digital transformation” - No. I mean if..

This was as myopic as you can expect these guys to be.


I support my medical mj company and doctor. They really helped as did my pharmacy. And that is all the more reason why I would go to the police (who in my interactions with them here have been really decent)

I get left politcs but if you find some non mainstream ideas there it is also in stasis. What is out there is a small subset of what is real and this monoculture cannot warp reality with carefully chosen people who won’t ever call out stuff except like some sort of ghastly influencer would. The world is grim on and offline, but like science..I get a headache around those guys (MixPanel etc. which is usually who I picture).

I dislike all of our political leaders here and media people and don’t want to get sucked into their kayfabe and I despise our industrialists like Adani and Ambani.
I support a small vegan sweets company and a small other food co, my doctors (minus hospital admins)..but I don’t need to do it via Google or Facebook or a creepy new indigenous thing.

These software companies need regulation and this is a democracy. I am apolitical in any material sense, but I have the sense to get that women like me cannot survive in tech and creep curated realities. I comply within reason - I would comply with the ori. I get vaccinated without a second thought.

But I really don’t like this creepy stalkerish rot on my street and it is not “like a virus”. I am sick of security theatre and theatre in general.

My mentor’s wife was cool. So is my onc. I can’t go around rattling cages like an ai piece of junk. But humans can take a hint and better.

I don’t understand all this and I don’t want to, but I am getting ready to file complaints and pushback against tech based on everything I have seen.
And while I liked my mentor, the flotsam and jetsam -no. I try to be polite, but except superficially I find it hard to be diplomatic.


And I will confess my dark secret to you- a lot of the time, I had rather get high and watch tv than work - please don’t tell Hannitty!!!! ( 😱 . More grimly, stop barging and pathologizing stuff for profit or turning people into political pawns. I am not addicted or paranoid. Why the hell would I want what looks like a Groupon from hell offered by Nadella with a threat of that nazi moron Musk. If that isn’t quite it, it is too damn close.


The point is I don’t just get high and watch tv. I try to work and fail and try again. Because my job isn’t being online riling up or amusing bored people. It is interdisciplinary science that is hard and effortful and needs concentration. And I need my own resources when the system fails me (not the fault of any of my mentore or anyone I accept as a colleague..the flotsam and jetsam aren’t colleagues so I had kick them out of my head to think straight.

But definitely my first two labs..I will be guided by my mentor’s wife wrt the third..I don’t understand flotsam and jetsam).

But this I can’t permit. I see the world as scientists do. Adam Becker puts it better in page 285 of his book. You can observe and guess. But all this certainty and drive and..Anyway I am not a commentator. The point is it is my home. If and where I am wrong, I will apologize and do what I can.

I will talk to Yasha Levine as well. This is the type of spectacle I hate. As anything typically professional seems bland and insincere, you default to learned helplessness or a rampage. And that misrepresents 95% of my actual reality. I am not depressive or borderline OR schizophrenic.

I was in an EECS dept. I have even less faith in these douchey engineers than many. They really don’t seem to know how to stay in their area of narrow expertise and no one would pick these guys to do everything. Just no.

Don’t ever do this again. Did you really think diversity was multicultural focus on trivialities plus embrace of junk capitalism or just confusion and randomness? You really need to get out more. Not me. And this stuff on my street will end badly.
So myopic and putting it all on camera. See I am not anon because I am shady or a shrinking violet. But it takes intense stupidity to go around documenting and sharing how daft you are or trying to scam your way behind the cams. Braindead…

Daft..this is a small set of people and many who are confused..I am a citizen who is very skeptical about junk tech and self serving creeps. Cut it out. I am filing complaints anyway.

The future is unknown but think past this business or electoral cycle please. And not by investing in reputation management software. Try to stay out of prison by staying off my street and away from all this. It is a trap not a game or fun.
The pd counsellor/shrink/therapist/the last place I stayed at were decent as well.