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Mental Health Support

FirstLight

(15,493 posts) Sat Feb 8, 2025, 02:03 AM Feb 2025

Why bother? ...it's all gonna fucking burn anyway... [View all]

I dont know if I've been sick this week because of my autoimmune disease or depression, but it feels like both.

I keep seeing posts here and elsewhere "keep fighting" and "fight back" and I am tired and i think I'm out of fight.

What's the point of re-launching my stupid website? What's the POINT of doing my homework for a BA that won't ever happen? what's the point of struggling to make this body work better when it's broken and I'm gonna lose my healthcare and then I'll really just want to die...

It's just like, how am I gonna make anything actually work in this life of mine...I'm 55, disabled, and pretty much broke.

It's just feeling very dark right now and if the ones we thought would be our 'helpers' are not able to help, wtf am *I* gonna do?

ETA: thanks for the hearts

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Why bother? ...it's all gonna fucking burn anyway... [View all] FirstLight Feb 2025 OP

I get it. I just don't think you will lose health coverage, if for no other reason than plenty of GOPers are in same Silent Type Feb 2025 #1

I agree, I don't think they will take healthcare away. LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #3

A monk running from a tiger comes to a precipice.... WheelWalker Feb 2025 #2

Beautiful answer! LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #4

💙💙💙 sheshe2 Feb 2025 #5

I'm 62 and disabled by MS. And wondering if the cancer I was treated for last year will come back soon or not. I just LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #6

And during these darkest of days, we should always remember....we are not alone! Missoula Coyote Choir... LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #8

Thank you FirstLight Feb 2025 #9

If there are only 'bits' to be had... OldBaldy1701E Feb 2025 #19

I'm so sorry. To explain, I grew up being abused in pretty much every way. I never felt safe. LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #21

And, I apologize for how harsh that now sounds. OldBaldy1701E Feb 2025 #23

No worries! 💙💙💙🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗. I hope your day is a good one too! Although I am freaking out today, LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #24

The last few days have been. OldBaldy1701E Feb 2025 #25

They've been rough, that's the truth. LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #26

Get a pencil and paper and write down 5 times in your life that were your proudest moments. multigraincracker Feb 2025 #7

I know what you mean! BigmanPigman Feb 2025 #10

Love all of you here, so much. I just love you guys and I am glad you are here. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #11

I feel the same way. The support forums have become so much Mike 03 Feb 2025 #14

FirstLight kozar Feb 2025 #12

Man do I empathize. Try to hang on until spring. Mike 03 Feb 2025 #13

Hey you, just checking in on you, how are you feeling today? 🤗💙 LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #15

workin' on it... trying to motivate to shoft my surroundings... FirstLight Feb 2025 #16

Even just one little thing can start a cycle of positivity! LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #17

Hey I wanted to ask you, have you ever noticed that in movies, when they have candles, LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #18

"I'm 55, disabled, and pretty much broke." OldBaldy1701E Feb 2025 #20

Hey, FirstLight and everyone else, how are you doing today? Please check in! 💙💙💙 LiberalLoner Feb 2025 #22

Still here, still breathing, still trying to heal FirstLight Feb 2025 #27