Over two years without my hubby

[Blue_playwright]

24. It's not the same as a spouse but

I lost my favorite aunt and her sister, my mom, within six weeks of each other this spring. I’m still devastated. Last Christmas, my mom was ill and canceled our usual Christmas Eve celebration. Instead we all planned to drop off gifts and goodies for my aunt at the nursing home and then play Christmas Day by ear. After visiting my aunt, my little family went to Mom’s and she had rallied some and fixed a simple dinner and lit the fire so we stayed. She didn’t want us to go get my aunt so I didn’t. I feel horribly guilty that I didn’t. I regret that missed chance for our last Christmas all together deeply and I’m not ready for the holidays without them both. I would like to skip

Whew. Guess I needed to vent there. Hub is a shrink and he keeps wanting me to get counseling but I think my grief is fairly normal. So is yours. Take your time. I do agree with the others that said to change things up. We are doing all the holidays differently this year and breaking traditions so they will be less of a landmine.

Good luck to you.